Sometimes it takes jumping off a cliff to find your wings!

Someday I won’t be able to jump off cliffs into waterfalls, today is NOT that day!

Today my girls and I visited a spot on the Washougal river that my friends and I frequented in our early twenties.  My husband used to climb to the highest supportive branch of a tree on the tallest cliff there and jump in.  I however avoided all cliffs and stuck to simply swimming.  It’s not just that I’m scared of heights, but the unknown of the dark water that freaks me out.  With the support of my girls and my new found courage that I continually gain from this journey, some 26 years later, I found myself first jumping off one ridiculously small yet somehow scary to me cliff and then off a bigger one!  So true are the wise words of Ralph Waldo Emerson, “What you are afraid to do is a clear indication of what you need to do next” and my daughter Annie, “you won’t regret it!”.  I can’t think of a time that I’ve regretted pushing through a fear and today was no exception!

Today was exhilarating!




We Leave What We Live!

Someday I won’t be able to pass on a generational legacy to my kids, today is NOT that day!

It had been a very long day and we were looking forward to getting home to hit the hay when we found ourselves driving past Portland Meadows.  I’ve never had much of a stomach for gambling, but my kids always got a major kick out of betting on the horses with my grandparents so I decided our beds would have to wait.  Today would have been my Grampa’s 96th birthday after all and this was one of their many legacies that I’d like to keep alive.  My Grama, aka “the bank”, was the sensible one and my Gramps was definitely the risk taker; both sides offer many valuable life lessons.  “Legacy is not leaving something for people, it’s leaving something in people.”- Peter Strople  My grandparents gave me a few material items that I will forever cherish, but it is the unconditional love they so freely gave and the way they lived their lives that so greatly shaped my life, impacted my kids’ lives and will continue to touch the lives of generations to come.

Today was a big $ kind of day!

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One of Life’s Detours…

Someday I won’t be able to let go and move forward, today is NOT that day!

On a late night run it hit me out of the blue; I was finally ready.  It has been 3 years and 10 months since we had to sell what we thought would be our “forever home” and I finally felt able to go back and check it out.  Given the choice I wouldn’t have taken this particular detour in life, however the lessons that came with it have proven to be more than worth the grief it caused.  In the wise words of Socrates, “The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new.”  That one took me a while, but sure has made a difference in my attitude and actions since it kicked in. 😉  I am so grateful for and happy with where we are now in our lives, that instead of arousing feelings of sadness and loss, going back sparked warm and tender memories.

Today was serene!



Mirror, Mirror, Not on the Wall…

Someday I won’t be able to get ready without a mirror, today is NOT that day!

We are still in the process of remodeling our new home and completing the finishing touches on the master bath is low on our list of priorities.  After nearly 4 months of walking past the unpacked boxes I realized that I haven’t missed anything in the boxes and could get rid of most of it.  I love simplicity, but usually have a hard time achieving it- so that sure felt good!  The best part of the bathroom being on hold however has been not having a mirror for 4 months.  At 49 I often question what reality the mirror on the wall is reflecting, the mirror in my mind however faithfully reflects the way that I still feel and the complexion of my youth.  It has been fantastically freeing!  “Don’t take mirrors seiously, your true reflection is in your heart” author unknown.  At some point we will mount our mirror because I know there will be times that I’ll need it, but I still won’t be taking it too seriously…  😉

Today was freeing!




Someday I won’t be able to rollerblade, today is NOT that day!

Trying to think of something new to add to my workout regime I remembered that I love roller blading.  It’s been a while since I’ve been however and the second I put them on I realized that I certainly won’t be able to do this forever!  Balance has never been my forte and it seems to be getting worse with age for me 😛  I had a couple of sketchy moments, but was thrilled that I somehow managed to stay upright.  I’m going through some stuff right now, but am always able to find peace when I am exercising outside.  It always leaves me bursting with appreciation for my able body and for the moments that I let my spirit take the lead.  Ego says, “Once everything falls into place, I’ll feel peace.” Spirit says, “Find your peace, and then everything will fall into place.” ~Marianne Williamson

Today was sketchy and peaceful!



The Pot Calling the Kettle Black!

Someday I won’t be able to embarrass my high school aged kids, today is NOT that day!

My 15 year old daughter has been instructing me for days on what is and is not allowed during the photo shoot of her track team.  Whenever my kids told me not to do something in the past, I’d do whatever it was even bigger.  They’ve all become so gracious with me however that I do my best to respect their now rare requests.  I proudly made it through the shoot without incident.  I had a bit of time to kill before my daughter would be ready to go home and since running the stairs during their practice is on the “not allowed” list, I decided to go for an off campus run.  When I finished my run I saw a few kids doing the javelin while everyone else seemed distracted with their warm ups on the track; looked like the perfect opportunity to check throwing a javelin off my bucket list to me!  It’s much harder than it looks and I didn’t love it, but I am glad to have tried it.  Even though throwing a javelin wasn’t on her “not allowed” list and the remarks that she received from several kids afterward were complimentary (apparently I wasn’t as inconspicuous as I had thought), my daughter was not amused and I was banned to my car for a bit.  I think Rick Riordan was channeling my daughter when he said, “Have you ever notice how parents can go from the most wonderful people in the world to totally embarrassing in three seconds?”.   On the drive home she informed me that I’m a lot of work.  Pretty sure that’s what they refer to as the pot calling the kettle black little miss high maintenance Jr.!  We were both laughing before we arrived home.

Today was seized opportunity!


Bring on the Mud!

Someday I won’t be able to scale across muddy embankments, today is NOT that day!

For weeks my daughter has been begging us to take her to Cougar Creek to hike along the stream (and by hike I mean scale across muddy embankments on all fours and slide across slippery rocks on our bums).  I was having a hard time finding any appeal to this adventure, but it was the quote that this blog was founded on that finally convinced me to go for it.  I am blessed with an able body and I GET to chose whether or not to join her.  The thought of someday not being able to do such things suddenly made this adventure extremely appealing.  It got pretty sketchy, dirty and hilarious in the middle and then was dry, sunny and gorgeous by the trails end.  In the words of Jojo Moyes, “You only get one life.  It’s actually your duty to live it as fully as possible.”  I’m grateful for my daughter who joined me in doing just that today!

Today was a muddy delight!